when the dam breaks
on the transition from being touch deprived to talked through it
Your full lips pressed against mine, all 5 fingers firmly wrapped around my neck. If I’d been standing, this would’ve easily been enough to make my knees instantly give out. I can feel your hunger for me and I hope you can feel mine too. My body feels like it’s melting in the best way, softening into yours & dissolving at the edges. Arousal quickly fills my senses, familiar and undeniable.
I already knew how good your kisses were from the last time… that first night we spent together. Slowly inching closer and closer until our lips finally met as the sun came up.
Now here you are again.
It’s been a year and a half since I’ve been wrapped in pleasure like this. 18 months since I’ve been skin to skin, subtly shifting and wiggling my body around just in case there’s a way to get a few centimeters closer.
Three rounds later and here I am sitting on the balcony with you, fully looking like that one bratz doll meme. Chatting, giggling, and reflecting.
Ultimately I feel recharged, I feel re-energized in a way, radiating with a sense of aliveness. It’s been a long time since I’ve indulged in desire like this… and I like how this one tastes. Simultaneously though, I know I’ll need to move with care, patience, and discernment if I want to keep a good thing going.
After 18 months of starving, imagining my next meal, I’m suddenly sitting in front of a full plate. And if I rush it, if I lose myself in it, I could easily overdo it. But if I slow down… if I savor what’s actually in front of me, the experience has so much more potential to expand and nourish. Slow and steady wins the race, word on the street.
But in my world where not much is more important than a quality connection and a good kiss… how do I keep myself from getting consumed by it? By the desire, the connection, the pleasure, the dance of it all? How do I stay grounded & clear while still letting myself feel, play, explore, and indulge?
Balance is what lets us hold intensity without tipping over, after all.
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If you want to explore what that balance actually looks like in practice, I go deeper in the next section; breaking down how I work with my sexual energy so it doesn’t take over. Plus full access to a 30 minute follow-along yoga flow you can use to stay grounded and mindful in your own body and sexual energy.
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